This song has been stuck in my head ALL day long

We All Need Saving

Why is it so hard to ask others for help? Is it because we feel like we're bothering them in their busy schedule? Maybe it's because we feel silly or whiny. Whatever the reason, for me it's just easier to keep it to myself and try to fix it alone.

But we're here to help each other. This first song says it best.

We All Need Saving- Jon McLaughlin  

come on come on
you have got to move on
this is not the you i know
this isn't real
it's just all you can feel
and that's the way that feelings go

and whether or not it's right or wrong
you'll do what you will do
but when the cloud in the sky starts to pour in your life
its just a storm you're braving
well don't tell yourself you can't lean on someone
cause we all need saving
sometimes

say what you will
but the time that we fill
while we are on the Earth
should not be alone
we were meant to be known
you make me what i'm worth
but i can't keep you from yourself
you'll do what you will do

when the cloud in the sky starts to pour in your life
it's just a storm you're braving
well don't tell yourself
you can't lean on someone else
cause we all need saving

and i don't know
why it has to be this way
and i don't know
the cure
but please believe someone else has felt this before

when the cloud in the sky starts to pour in your life
it's just a storm you're braving
well don't tell yourself
you can't lean on someone else
cause we all need saving
we all need saving
sometimes
sometimes 

I think this is my new favorite song. I'm not saying there's anything wrong, because there's not. Life is good. I was just thinking in general... We shouldn't feel like we can't go to other people when we need help. 

Speaking of helping each other... My sister Janet helped me today. After reading her blog about a nightmare she had last night, I feel more motivated to fill my time with the most important things. Things that will matter in the long run. It's incredibly easy to waste time or get distracted and push aside the most important things. 

So what am I going to do about it? Well I'm going to start by setting a few goals for this week (actually write them down and hang them on my wall) and I'm going to be committed to them all week! (I said it. So now I really have to be committed)

Here's a link to my sister's blog if you want to read a great post. She's such a great mom. 

If Life Gives You Lemons... Just Eat'em!

With caution though... especially if it's your first time!

Come See the Light

This is an incredible song. The words are so profound.







Also, I read this story today. It's about a couple who lost their 2 year-old in 2008. I've been following their blog for months now and today I decided to read a few things. I'm grateful that I did. I was reminded of how precious life is. Molly (the mother) was on Channel 5 last week. Here's a link if you want to watch it. It's such an inspiring story.

20 is better than 19

Over the Christmas break I started writing down funny things that my family said. I made my own little quote wall and it's hilarious! This was included:

Mom: "I wore that 40 years ago!" looking at an old scarf.
Cindy: "When I was born?"
Mom: "No! 20 years before you were born!"
Cindy: "Ha ha... oh yeah."

Turns out I'm only 20. Go figure.

My teenage years are long gone. I have no idea where the time has gone! I was talking to a few girls in my ward the other day and one of them mentioned that she dreaded her 20th birthday. Not me. I welcomed it with open arms. But 20 used to be so old! I don't feel old at all. I'm curious if there's a point in life where I'll feel old? Every time I (or Kevin) tell my mom she's old, she says something like, "I still feel like I'm 13 sometimes!". I guess no matter how many candles are on my cake I may never feel "old".

I like being 20 nonetheless. It's only been 2 and 1/2 weeks so far and it's been great! I like my life. A lot. And I want to enjoy all of it. I want to enjoy right here, right now. I don't want to wish I was anywhere else. There's a lot to look forward to! Learning to be happy with my life now, will help me be happy in the future. "Finding Joy in the Journey" by President Monson is a great talk.

On a totally different note. Going to Las Vegas to meet Simon for the first time was fun. 

 

 It's hard to see his face, but it has "Cindy, you're my favorite aunt!" written all over it. 

 

 He was talking to me.

I can't believe how long his eye lashes are!

Simon's blessing.

He was sleepy.

So was I.

Simon IS so cuddly! I've experienced it first hand and I loved it! Isn't his little stretched out arm cute?

I love Janet.

He's so cute :) Love his dimple

Here are a few random pics. I wasn't there, but they're sure cute anyway. 

Gracey

Simon and Camille

Lucy. There's so much light inside of this little girl. She just glows

 

 Paisley is out of control. 

 

I cannot help but smile everytime I see this picture. 

It's easy to be fooled by this cute, innocent face... It's fooled me multiple times.

She's hilarious!

One more thing. I've been thinking about this summer a lot this past week. I don't like the idea of living at home and working... I've thought about staying in Provo, but I don't really like that idea either. I may go to Atlanta to spend the summer with Kristy and Company. I've been thinking about this a lot and we've talked about a few possibilities. We'll see what happens though. Something will work out.

And NO I do not plan on going out there to find a husband. That "trend" ended years ago...

all things denote there is a God

On Saturday I met my nephew Simon for first time! He's even cuter in real life than all the cute pictures. I didn't think it was possible for him to be any cuter, but then again pictures don't show all of his facial expressions and you can't hear his cute baby cues. Plus, in the pictures he wasn't smiling at me, he's way cuter when he's smiling at me :) Anyway, I went to Las Vegas this weekend for his blessing. After the blessing everyone was planning on going back to Janet's house. My mom decided that she wanted to stay for all three hours but she didn't want to be alone, so she asked me to stay with her. I told her that I didn't really want to... because I was tired and I didn't know anyone in the ward anyway. She said, "Please just stay with me. If you stay you won't regret it". 
It was confirmed, once again, that my mom is always right! The Relief Society lesson was so good and I was grateful that my mom asked me to stay with her. Ever since this lesson I've been thinking a lot about it.

We started out by singing this Primary song. 

MY HEAVENLY FATHER LOVES ME

Words and Music by Clara W. McMaster, b. 1904

Whenever I hear the song of a bird

Or look at the blue, blue sky,

Whenever I feel the rain on my face

Or the wind as it rushes by,

Whenever I touch a velvet rose

Or walk by a lilac tree,

I'm glad that I live in this beautiful world

Heavenly Father created for me.

He gave me my eyes that I might see

The color of butterfly wings.

He gave me my ears that I might hear

The magical sound of things.

He gave me my life, my mind, my heart:

I thank him reverently

For all his creations, of which I'm a part.

Yes, I know Heavenly Father loves me.

I love this song. Even more now than I ever have. Everything around me testifies that there is a God. A few years ago I went to my last girls camp with my home ward. A guy in our stake came and taught us about the stars. I was in heaven! Afterward, my friend Heidi and I were talking about how cool it was and we concluded that that it all testifies that there was indeed a God. 
It's like in Alma when Korihor asks for a sign. Alma tells him that he doesn't need a sign. Everything around him is enough and that all things denote there is a God. "...the earth, and all things that are upon the face of it, yea, and its motion, yea and also all the planets which move in their regular form do witness that there is a Supreme Creator" (Alma 30:46)

Speaking of the planets... the teacher read this quote about Isaac Newton and an atheist friend. This is a great story!

This was found in The Truth: God or evolution? Marshall and Sandra Hall describe quoted this exchange between Newton and an atheist friend. (I don't have a page number).
 

Sir Isaac had an accomplished artisan fashion for him a small scale model of our solar system, which was to be put in a room in Newton's home when completed. The assignment was finished and installed on a large table. The workman had done a very commendable job, simulating not only the various sizes of the planets and their relative proximities, but also so constructing the model that everything rotated and orbited when a crank was turned. It was an interesting, even fascinating work, as you can imagine, particularly to anyone schooled in the sciences.

Newton's atheist-scientist friend came by for a visit. Seeing the model, he was naturally intrigued, and proceeded to examine it with undisguised admiration for the high quality of the workmanship. "My, what an exquisite thing this is!" he exclaimed. "Who made it?" Paying little attention to him, Sir Isaac answered, "Nobody." Stopping his inspection, the visitor turned and said, "Evidently you did not understand my question. I asked who made this." Newton, enjoying himself immensely no doubt, replied in a still more serious tone, "Nobody. What you see just happened to assume the form it now has." "You must think I am a fool!" the visitor retorted heatedly, "Of course somebody made it, and he is a genius, and I would like to know who he is!" Newton then spoke to his friend in a polite yet firm way: "This thing is but a puny imitation of a much grander system whose laws you know, and I am not able to convince you that this mere toy is without a designer or maker; yet you profess to believe that the great original from which the design is taken has come into being without either designer or maker! Now tell me by what sort of reasoning do you reach such an incongruous conclusion?"

Like Newton, it's hard for me to understand how someone doesn't believe in God, especially a scientist or astronomer. I'm taking a couple biology classes right now. The more I study plants and cells and DNA, I gain a better understanding of who God is. Everything is so organized and complicated. These things did not come to existence through a big bang! There's no way. There's something more and I know it.

I'm glad that I live in this beautiful world! It's such a blessing! There was a time in my existence when I wasn't here on this earth. Right now I am, and I'm grateful to be here. I just read in my D&C class in section 76. In verse 89 it says this "And thus we saw, in the heavenly vision, the glory of the telestrial, which surpasses all understanding."  We have a lot to look forward to!  

Oh and here's a picture of Simon. He's so stinkin cute!

Aunt Cindy said it!

    I don't know why I don't like to write on my blog anymore but I don't... I'll write a post, then it forever remains as a draft. I like writing my ideas out, but I don't really care for the idea of other people reading it. I don't really care for discussion either. My journal is good to me :)

Anyway a few months ago I posted this picture about bad parenting.

    It's not a funny picture, because it's so true and it's really sad. A couple of weeks ago my sister-in-law Katie told me a story. Before she told me she said, "You're going to feel bad but listen to what Andrew said the other day".
    Last month my 2-year-old (almost 3) nephew was watching TV and he said something like, "That's stupid". Katie said, "Andrew don't say that word". Then he said, "Well Aunt Cindy said it!"
    I do feel bad! I probably only said it once and I didn't know he was listening. And I'm not even his parent!
It's amazing how they watch and learn from us.
    Of course most parents want the best for their children, but children don't just need to be taught. They need an example. They need someone to lead them and guide them.

I rarley say that word anyway....
Poor little duckies...